Posted by lookdownfish on September 14, 2004, at 16:33:18
In reply to I'm a broken record ****TRIGGER****, posted by crushedout on September 13, 2004, at 21:25:03
It's totally understandable how her messing up with the email makes you feel so hurt. It occurs to me that she was unconsciously was trying to communicate something to you by this. Maybe there is a part of her that would like you to be part of her family. Or the less good interpretation is that she is reminding you that she has a family that you are not part of and cannot be part of. This sounds pretty cruel, but its taking place at an unconsious level. I'm sure she wouldn't mean to hurt you like this. You might feel better once you've talked it through with her...?
>> I feel like a broken record. I'm back in transference-miseryland. I feel like I've been in denial, or else maybe I had a reprieve but really my transference was just lurking below the surface, hiding out, taking new forms. It hadn't really left.
That's just it - I sometimes think my transference is miraculously cured, but it just doesn't work like that. The transference pain may diminish for a while, as yours did, but its ready to bite back. Is it because things in your life aren't going so well and you're more vulnerable?
Something difficult happened to me a couple of weeks ago, and I've been obsessing terribly about my therapist again since then.Take care - sorry you're going through this
lookdownfish
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