Posted by Rigby on October 24, 2004, at 18:48:37
Hi All,
I posted a few days ago about my situation above. I left a voicemail for my therapist on Friday to talk and she returned it yesterday.
To summarize:
I told her that I wasn't happy with how things went and she said that yes, things ended poorly. I said I was mistrustful of her and was having a hard time wrapping my mind around doing therapy with someone who would make a nasty unsupportive remark, that I thought she showed her true colors and that they couldn't be un-shown now.
She said she thought it was an "unfortunate mistake" but that I was over-reacting. How could I throw three years away for one comment?
I said given the stress level in my life right now, I didn't have a lot of room for "unfortunate mistakes" from my therapist. I agreed that I may be over-reacting but I also believe in my instincts. And if she wants me to think about over reacting I want her to think about why she made such a remark. I said I would not walk away from the situation thinking the responsibility was solely on *my* shoulders.
She asked for me to come in to talk further. I said that I would not process her mistake on my dime. And that if we were going to talk we would do so on the phone.
We talked for about fifteen minutes. I said that I thought she was being unprofessional and unsupportive. She said, again, that I was over-reacting and that her remark was not "so out there."
I said there was absolutely no benefit for that remark to me in my therapy. She didn't argue, but came back to it being an "unfortunate mistake."
She pushed for me to confirm coming in. I said no. We talked some more and she again asked if she should assume I'd be there and I said no.
And that's how it's ended.
It's interesting to play with how it feels to be done with therapy with her. Lots of interesting things to think about. I never intended to be "in therapy" for my life and it's interesting to me now how okay it feels to consider being done. It's not how I like to end things but, who cares? I thought about that: what do I care if it ends on a sour note? I'm not her friend. She's not mine. It feels kinda powerful, actually. I'm not so sure I need her anymore. An odd way to come around to that potentiality but it may be so.
Anyway,not sure how I'll feel in the week to come but it'll be interesting to see.
Any comments or advise would of course be appreciated and thanks for all the advise so far!
poster:Rigby
thread:406744
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