Posted by happyflower on December 28, 2005, at 20:56:31
In reply to Re: I had a bad session today and I just want to q » happyflower, posted by Tamar on December 28, 2005, at 20:00:49
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> (((((Happyflower)))))
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>> Call him and ask him. I know you’d prefer to avoid him, but I really think you need to talk to him and sort it out…
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Tamar,
I just feel like he won't talk to me on the phone because things like this have gotten worse when we did that because he is cold on the phone. But yet I don't feel like I should have to pay for another appointment either. Today just felt like a power stuggle I think. Maybe I was fighting him too.It started off okay, he even said he thought about me when he didn't see me at the gym last Sat. , because he knew I was at home cooking pounds of sausage. He told me he throw up at on Christmas for the first time in a decade. Well I was talking about me being sick, and he has to talk about himself. I think things have gotten too personal between us because when he acts like an *sshole I get hurt. I did tell him I am having 2nd thoughts about the divorce, but he seemed to agree with my reasoning, but maybe me going in circles is annoying him.
But then again if things weren't personal, I would still feel hurt by the way he was today. I know he has to know it will be uncomfortable at the gym if this waits 2 weeks. We even talked today about how my DH runs from his problems, and I confront them, just like I did with him.I just don't know if things could ever not be personal, it would be hard to go back because we do enjoy each others company.
Today I just felt like I was trash and he was trying to throw me away. I think if he had an appointment he had to get to right after my session, he could of told me that he had to leave right after our appointment. He didn't have to get mean about it.
I guess I made the first move by calling him and telling him how he made me feel today. The ball is in his court I think. If doesn't call I guess I could just dump a bottle of cold water on his head at the gym. How about that? LOL I got a new water bottle that can squirt water, maybe get him good as he jogs by and trys to ignore me! Ha! He shouldn't mess with this happyflower. Okay I need to get to bed now. Thanks for you support. I am exhausted.
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