Posted by happyflower on January 2, 2006, at 16:06:30
Not sure if I got the guts to do it. I know he doesn't believe in soul mates, so he might be closed minded about it. I tried to talk about it before about the other 2 soul mates in my life. And when he interupetd me and said he didn't believe in soul mates, I just clammed up.
But this was way in the beginning of therapy, before he really knew me well.I was thinking of saying that he is probably going to think I am nuts after I talk about this subject, but I need to talk about it and I need him to be patient and listen to me. I am going to say that I don't need validatation from him , or expect anything from him. I just have something to say. It is okay if he disagrees with me, or doesn't believe me, I know what I feel.
I am going to talk a little about that feeling about my grandma and old friend, (which we discussed before). I don't know if soul mates is the correct term, but it is hard to explain the feeling. It is like a warm, deep,confident, "spiritaul " feeling. Not love, lust, transference, but something more special than that. You know it if you have felt it. The spirit stays with you even when they have died.Then I am going to tell him he is my 3rd person I have felt this about immmediately the momement I met him. I don't know what kind of "soul mate" he is, but it is what it is.
I am going to talk about all the coincedenses between us, there are a lot to them, he has even noticed it. I think they are signs. I am going to say he is probably going to think I am full of sh*t or I have been smoking weed or something, but is something I have felt a year ago, but now feel comfortable with telling him.
I know I am risking this by telling him, he may deceide to stop doing therapy with me because of my feelings. But it is what it is, and I don't expect him to understand it. But I am thinking if I can get an appointment this week (i called today), I am going to tell him. If I don't chicken out. My one year anniversary of therapy is Jan. 4th, so that would quite a present to give to him. Or I will get the present of termination, which is scary. I will be in open tonight, if you all want to talk. :)
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