Posted by susan47 on May 20, 2006, at 15:19:28
In reply to Re: I called my T today, can't get in till next week » happyflower, posted by Larry Hoover on May 16, 2006, at 22:11:38
> > So can you develop a good self esteem later in life or is it something you acuire during your childhood?
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> I just got one very recently. Still has that new car smell. I'm 49.
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> LarAre you still there? Larry I'm 49 next month ... ew yuck gross, but good too, because I have that new car smell too, some days and it is sooooo nice... and we're the same age, isn't that awful? That we couldn't come to it before....but let's keep what we have and add more and more onto that, and
HAPPYFLOWER I am so so sorry I didn't come here sooner and see your thread, because I relate soooo well to what you are feeling right now and DON'T Do Not let it drive you to distraction, talk to us sweetie, tell us and tell that damn psychologist exactly but EXACTLY where to find you, no holds barred, and tell that wonderful foolish man what he doesn't yet know, in spite of what his profession teaches him, and that is that you are a person with depths as deep as his and you are just as damn worthy of his trust as he is of yours .. and so far, you have shown more honesty and integrity than his profession or his ego allows him to show you ....
That's what I did. But I was bad, very very bad because I got addicted to making telephone calls and leaving messages on his machine or his voicemail or what-the-hell-ever ... a person with an imbalance of compassion and understanding versus professional pride would see that in a very negative, draining way and perhaps would act upon this ... and whatever ... I don't know their side either, any more than he would have known mine.
But I do know this.
I was full of integrity in my honesty.
And so are you, Happyflower,
and that isn't easy.
That's the hardest, most difficult job of all.
And you're taking it on.
And you be proud of yourself in your strength and your integrity, in the honesty of the pain you allow yourself to feel and show, but don't forget, in the end, that this man is a person too, and perhaps not the wisest, ane perhaps not seeing too clearly everything that could be seen ... Love yourself, HF.
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