Posted by fallsfall on May 23, 2006, at 19:41:51
In reply to Re: scared of going to the hospital *trigger* ? fallsfall, posted by llrrrpp on May 23, 2006, at 17:03:54
Good. So you have decided that you will stay alive until tomorrow. That is a very good start.
What are you scared will happen with your therapist? Are you afraid she will send you to the hospital? You should talk to her about this. Tell her your fear. Ask her under what circumstances she recommends hospitalization. Maybe the two of you can come to an agreement on what circumstances would need to be in order for you to go to the hospital.
If you can decide that there is hope that therapy can make things better, then that hope can keep you from acting on these feelings. Maybe you could give therapy a time period, and see if you feel better at the end of that time. Sometimes I can make a decision to wait for a certain amount of time, and forbid myself to do anything dangerous in that time. This means that I can have the suicidal feelings, yet put them aside (because I don't have "permission" to do anything about them at that time). Just being able to put them aside for a little while can reduce my anxiety and help me focus on the things that are making me so upset. You have already done this until tomorrow. Can you give yourself a little more time?
You think that there might be other options. Perhaps feeling better as a result of therapy is one? Try to let your therapist know how badly you are feeling. Try to be really honest with her. Call and ask for an extra session if you think it would help (this is exactly the time that it is reasonable to ask if she has an empty session that you can take).
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