Posted by Honore on July 19, 2007, at 11:01:13
In reply to I'm Upset - triggers (long), posted by DAisym on July 18, 2007, at 20:02:38
Maybe you don't need him as a witness as much as someone who's there with you, so you're not alone. It's terrible to have to relive, or revive memories that are so painful and hurtful, but we all kind of believe that we need to do that, to get better, however little we feel it at those times when they come over us. But you can come out of it in a better place-- because he can help you find it, or help you create it. You can't do it alone-- you're too much still the little girl who had those feelings; you need a guide, maybe like Dante needed Virgil, to guide him, and keep him from going too far, from becoming too enmeshed, too involved, to strengthen him in going through hell and in re-engaging the friends and enemies he encountered there.
I know he won't abandon you or think you're bad-- but that's what you can come to know, through the terrible moments when he doesn't do or think those things. It's incredibly hard. But you will come to know that you're not deserving of abandonment, but of respect and compassion for all the good impulses that may have been turned into something wrong, by the actions of those around you, that evoked so much confusions, anger, or fear.
Being upset-- is awful, but it really isn't the worst thing-- because it shows that you do believe there's hope-- it's worth going through this again. We all have a belief in you and your T-- in your ability, together, to go as deep as you need to, and to come out of this to a place where things have realigned, been refelt, so much for the better.
I hope you can feel, at least, that this is so hopeful-- that it isn't a bad thing, but an important and necessary thing, that you'll overcome, or undergo, in a way that is good, and valuable. And that we're all with you, in spirit.
Honore
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