Posted by OzLand on July 21, 2007, at 13:28:14
In reply to All of a sudden; depression/pain; what happened?, posted by OzLand on July 20, 2007, at 22:09:15
Thank you for responses of support. My T worries about me not having anyone in my life who is supportive of me. My husband has his own stuff going on and though he thinks he is being supportive, what he does just adds to my stress and pain.
I had to go into work this morning to see someone for an evaluation, and now that I am home, I am exhausted and just want to go take a nap which is what I plan to do. I feel horribly depressed still, and it is like the old record playing the same song again. Something can set it off, and then depression takes on a life of its own. And I become more and more depressed. My T is off on some jaunt again. He warned me he would be gone a lot of Fridays and weekends, and one of the days I see him is on Friday.
I think to my self what difference does it make; there is nothing he can do anyway except suggest the hospital, and I don't want to do that. I am looking at another job, actually in Chicago, and I need to get out of this funk or I will mess that up too. This job seemed to come along at the most opportune time.
So, I am off to take a nap and hope I feel better later. If not, well then I don't know what to do. Sorry, but magazines, TV, candy of any sort, etc is not for me. Neither is curling up and sleeping as I know it leads to weird stuff if I do too much. After a point, I used to have trouble distinguishing reality from dreams. I won't let that happen.
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