Posted by DAisym on September 6, 2007, at 20:04:40
In reply to Re: Something about the day after therapy...., posted by Honore on September 6, 2007, at 17:50:02
"It's this sense that he's still there, which only developed after a long long time (and other things-- including meds and our relationship changing and become more sure)."
I've worked and worked on this. We call it "therapist-permanance" as it feels just like a child working on object-permanance. I think I'm starting to shift into object-constancy in that I know he now exists even when I can't see him, but I still worry that he will change in-between sessions. Change to me means he will suddenly see how hard it is to work with me and not want to anymore. Or change means we have to work differently than we do now. Or...I could go on.
I think for me the yearning to touch base soon after a session has to do with merging during sessions and then ripping apart again. It is painful and lonely, more so at first and then it gets tolerable again. Weird that it isn't the other way around.
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