Posted by star008 on May 30, 2008, at 23:14:20
Again I apoligize for not being around these days. I have gone through a bad time of depression and haven't even felt like turning on the computer. Been isolating and I need someone to talk to.. Like who in the world can I tell that I switch and dissociate without having someone think I am totally nuts??
This is what happened.. We were talking about doing work and other stuff and first I felt angry, then sad and then I switched into one of my little kids and I was totally terrified..Was afraid of T, was just terrified to be there,.. I was able to bring it under control in a few minutes but while it lasted, it was terrible.. I couldn't catch my breath, I was so scared that it was beyond anything I remember feeling.. He kept telling me it ws okay and that I was safe and reminding me to breath.. This whole thing is really disturbing to me. I have no idea why I switched and to switch while someone is watching me is hard to deal with,. I am embarrassed and disturbed. It is hard to have someone watch and for me to know what is going on and to be powerless to change what is happening. I was able to come out of that kid but I have been dissociating since then.. I am okay one minute and the next I am in a fog and numb.. I am feeling hopeless and don't know how I will ever overcome this one.. I am aware from my "adult" what is happening but I don't have any control at all.. I forced my self to look at my T and it helped to bring me back to reality and the present but it is so hard to even look at him..I can't find any info on how to come back out of it when it happens to me.. I have had this happen before but it has been awhile.. It takes me days to get over it.. Any ideas?? I really need some help and there is no one I can share this with.. thanks babblers.. I miss u
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