Posted by Happyflower on June 12, 2008, at 7:35:16
In reply to Re: Called my old T today and left a message, posted by muffled on June 11, 2008, at 20:05:01
Thanks Muffy for it must be the longest post I think you have ever written. lol I hear ya, I do, but something tells me this is what I should do. It is hard to explain really. But I feel strong and I have the confidence to face this and hopefully have some closure. I want to try, at least I will know I did all I could do.
My T will be around for me at least by phone if I need him. We have talked about this before, and he isn't exactly wanting me to do this, because my old T could be defensive about it.
But I think what is different is that I am focusing on what he did that was good. I wrote him a letter that I am going to drop off today that explains how I want to feel good about the work we did and not let what happened at the end tarnish all the good.
I told him in the letter I need to do this for my piece of mind and not to extend our relationship. I was very clear about why I wanted to see him, so at least he doesn't feel like a sitting duck. Maybe it will even help him help me with what I need. It has been almost a year now, and it would be such a relief to me if I could not have anger when I see him in public. If it goes bad, I will leave the gym so I don't run into him as much.
Thanks for caring about me, Muffy. I have been wondering about you and your new T or maybe T.
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