Posted by alexandra_k on January 17, 2020, at 0:34:36
In reply to Re: time and times, posted by rjlockhart37 on January 14, 2020, at 20:24:50
Hey. I used to feel a bit that way about paying for therapy, too. On the other hand, therapists gotta eat, too. I guess it depends how much money you have and what things you choose to spend your money on...
I hear you in thinking it is not 'real life', somehow...
I don't talk much with people IRL, anymore, either. I talk to my sister a bit. My mother occasionally. That's about it.
I feel angry and resentful and let down by life, mostly. I feel that I have been treated like a retarded child since I dropped out of my PhD. I feel like people have simply refused to listen to a single word I have said and expected me to live off their scraps in awful substandard conditions while being forced to beg for basic necessities... And (worse) they actually did think that I was incompetent and incapable of writing a thesis in a timely fashion (which was the only reason why they let me try)...
And so realising my 'friends' were my biggest stabateurs...
And realising that these people... Are not intellectually curious. Are not working towards the development of education for inquiring minds.
Are tyrants.
Are holding back development.
Are oblivious about how they are ruining things for us all.
Realising that these people would rather see me fail miserably than succeed. That these people would rather be right than be part of something greater... These awful people...
Awful people.
Awful.
Awful.
Awful people.
Sigh.
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