Posted by just so sad on June 2, 2005, at 11:44:24
Well, not doing so well today - this week actually. Hubby was away last w/end and I drank too much Friday night BY MYSELF which I had pledged to not do; so Saturday I drink just a couple, but still BY MYSELF. Sunday I went over to a neighbours in the afternoon and we drank ourselves silly and I came home at 9 pm - don't really remember much after that (hubby apparently came home - he was in bed when I woke up the next morning!) So Monday - no drinks at all. But Tuesday, went for a beer with a co-worker and then had a couple more at home; and yesterday, well, that was the kicker. Mid-afternoon and I grabbed a bottle of wine (found a good place to hide it in case anyone came into the room) and had a big vodka chaser, and was passed out by 7 pm. It was a dreary day and I had nothing to do for a change, so I figured, what the hell - I've been good, I deserve it. My son approached me this morning and asked if I was okay - he was relieved I was feeling better (I had feigned a tummy ache) because apparently I had been quite nasty. Don't remember. Now I'm left with guilt and self-loathing. I thought I was done with all this cr*p. If I can't get a better handle on this, I'll have to go to the group things. Thanks for listening.
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