Posted by TamaraJ on June 2, 2005, at 17:52:05
In reply to Re: Hi. ( long rambling) » TamaraJ, posted by just so sad on June 2, 2005, at 15:56:21
Hi,
I know you have been doing really well until this last week, and you should be really proud of the progress you made and the resolve and good intentions you have. The things you have been doing are big steps really. I know what you mean about avoiding the meetings. I "controlled" my drinking for a few years, and didn't want to have anything to do with meetings or support groups. I was sure I could continue to control my drinking and manage my problem my own way. When I decided to go to a meeting, it happened very quickly. No thought really. It was on what would have usually been one big, day-evening-weekend long drunk with my friends. Just couldn't do it again that year. I guess I knew it was time. So, I just picked up the phone, called AA and someone actually came and picked me up and took me to a meeting. Whether you go to meetings or not, it is still you that is doing the work. The meetings and the group are there for support and to help you develop new ways of looking at things, etc. and to give you guidance or whatever on how to deal with or avoid drinking triggers. But, I can see why you might be afraid that meetings might not help.
You have been doing well, and you will do well again. Try not to be hard on yourself, ok. It only makes you feel worse, and nobody deserves that. And, besides, it doesn't change what happened. So, just try to move forward and learn from the times when you feel you have disappointed yourself.
My thoughts are with you. Take very care of yourself.
Tamara
> Thanks Tamara...I know I have a problem but have been doing really well until this last week or two. I avoid meetings because then I will have to face the fact that I will probably have to turn my back on alcohol once and for all, once I start going to meetings, and that thought does not appeal to me. Also, I'm scared that if going to meetings doesn't help, it's the last option and it will mean I'm doomed. Don't know if I'm explaining it properly. Anyway - thanks for your input and support.
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