Posted by AMD on August 4, 2005, at 9:56:48
In reply to Re: I slipped again ... and I am afraid this one is it, posted by Declan on August 3, 2005, at 22:23:34
That's what has me spooked -- it's not just "a line or two": it's excess. And at this point it's hard enough getting out of bed to work, let alone getting to a meeting or doing something proactive about it.
I am so freaked out right now. It came on so suddenly ...
Oh, the other thing is, I was off my Lamictal for four days. I am sure that didn't help, and now that I'm back on it, I'm worried it's not going to work any longer. I took 200 mg yesterday, and another 200 mg today, plus one the night I got home, and I feel completely zonked.
Right now I feel like I called wolf a bit too many times -- you all are reading this, rolling your eyes, and saying "It will be OK." (And I appreciate that.) But this one feels different. Maybe it's being off the Lamictal. Maybe I did permanent damage to my prefrontal cortex and/or hippocampus. Maybe the alcohol binge did permanent brain damage. But it feels worse than ever before.
What is spooking me out is the memory stuff. Is it possible I'm still drunk, after five days? Couldn't be -- but I saw my psychiatrist last night, and she said "you look drunk," and wanted to send me to the hospital for detox. But I don't remember crawling into bed last night -- I woke up this morning after 12 hours of sleep and thought, "whoa, where am I?" /That/ is what's scaring me. Was that the Zyprexa I took yesterday? Will I get better? Is there any documentation to show that this is even possible -- that a heavy night's drinking after a week or so and then abstinence for a few days would harm my brain to the extent that my short-term memory is simply gone. Very scary!
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