Posted by AMD on October 2, 2006, at 8:49:36
Folks,
It's been a long time since my last visit. Of course, I turn to the board for help, as usual.
Most of you know my history. What you may not know is that over the past couple of months I've gotten my life back under control - I get to work on time, am going to graduate school, and have been spending weeknights at home relaxing and not out getting blitzed. I've also quit using cocaine.
That said, some colleagues of mine invited me out Friday and, after almost deciding no, I ended up going with them to a bar downtown. Well, a few hours later, I blacked out. I don't remember getting home, but I do remember sleeping on the street for a couple hours, and waking up realizing I was a few blocks from home. The rest is a blur.
That was, as I said, Friday, and I'm at the office today, so I haven't missed any work.
But I am still feeling very horrible. I expected to feel bad Saturday, but as of now (morning) I am feeling tired, zoned out, and overall unable to focus. I find myself misspelling words, and using the same words two or more times in a paragraph. I feel anxious, and my mind won't stay focused. Yesterday I was acting dyslexic, asking for a "Violet Parsity" pen (I mean Pilot Varsity!) and other oral twists. My word recall is very poor.
Did I do something I'm not going to recover from? I slipped - but was this a permanent slip now? I'm rather upset as I was feeling so much better, and have been on the right track. To see all that work thrown away from one night would devestate me.
Can I expect to feel better and more clear-headed soon? If there was permanent damage, am I experiencing the symptoms?
(For the record, I have been very sharp and clear-headed lately, I believe.)
Rereading this message, I feel it's very rambling, and unorganized: exactly how I'm feeling right now.
amd
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