Posted by Lindenblüte on November 7, 2006, at 19:15:17
In reply to Re: Life is a terminal illness, posted by AMD on November 7, 2006, at 18:59:39
Hi amd,
my post inspired you ? wow-- I'm really touched. That means a lot to me, seriously. Thanks for telling me.
Maybe it's time to tweak your AD routine. I just recently had to increase my dose of AD and I'm responding REALLY well to the increase.
Are you working with a pdoc right now? Have you told him/her about the alcohol and cocaine? He might be able to figure out a way for you to break this pattern without causing too much instability.
I'm not sure what your prospects are-- I'm not a pdoc or anything. The main factor for your recovery will be how much support you can gather as you make some choices that could be painful/unpleasant in the short run, but ultimately beneficial in the long run.
Cocaine will affect your ability to feel pleasure from simple things, if chronically abused. That statement is a gross generalization, because everyone reacts to drugs differently. It's probably not helping you, though, and it may be hurting you more than you realize.
I think you can find a pdoc that will not judge you for this habit you've developed. It's a symptom. Everyone has stress, and everyone has developed ways to cope with it. Your coping mechanism is not ideal, and is hurting you-- but that doesn't make you a bad person.
Can you open up to someone IRL about finding treatment that will give you tools to kick the self-medicating and ultimately to help you find the root of your suffering? Can you give yourself a chance?
still rooting for you! (you can't be THAT mindless, because your writing is clear, and you apparently managed to read my long post pretty quickly!) don't be so hard on yourself. Just accept the fact that you're human. You have to do everything that other humans do, regardless of your high expectations and gifts. When there's stress, you will suffer just like anyone else will, but you will also be able to learn how to get out of self-destructive patterns.
-Li
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