Posted by AMD on November 7, 2006, at 15:19:48
In reply to Re: Life is a terminal illness » AMD, posted by Lindenblüte on November 7, 2006, at 13:48:51
Thanks Li,
It's hardest right now, when I'm feeling very ill and depressed. Unfocused mentally. Worried my cognition and energy won't come back. Worried I'm going to be hospitalized when I should be leading a company.
I just want to zonk out right now, until it passes, you know? But what if it doesn't pass?
I've been trying to find more creative outlets for my energies, but it's hard. And today I hear that voice in my head repeating, "It's too late now," "It's too late now," "It's too late now," and I worry my hopes and dreams are lost from last weekend's revelry.
amd
> Hi AMD,
> I'm hearing your cry for help, and I really want to be there for you. I'm totally ignorant about how to stop this self-destructive pattern. I guess my recommendation to you would be to find an alternative activity during the times when you are prone to drinking/drugging yourself senseless.
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> Don't hang out with the people who enable you (at least not over the weekends). Make a regular date with a group of "safe" friends. See a movie, have a home video evening over at your place. "forget" to bring wine. Go shopping. Sign up for a yoga class, or get season passes to the theater or opera.
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> If you cannot find a "safe" group of friends, try going to an AA or NA meeting that meets during a time when you have a weakness to binge. Maybe a group meets on Saturday night- 7pm. You can get the bad feelings out of your system, rather than just numbing them for another week.
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> Long term, it will be important for you to figure out what you're trying to numb- are you trying to escape anxiety? poor self-esteem? your past? Therapy can help you sort out these complicated feelings.
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> you're only human. Use the other 6 days a week to set up a support system for the days when you know you run into trouble.
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> best,
> -Li
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