Posted by ClearSkies on December 26, 2006, at 8:45:19
In reply to Re: So close to falling in, posted by antigua on December 16, 2006, at 14:20:10
> I'm sorry I didn't see this earlier. I know exactly what you mean. This year the holidays are so very difficult for me. I want to drink and drink and drink it all away. But I can't. And it would just cause more trouble in the long run. But it doesn't make me not crave it. Then I have a pity party, why can't I play too? Everyone else is having fun. I do what you do, and just keep plugging away, day after day. I really want to get through this season without drinking. For myself and my children and husband. BUt I remember it's for me.
> But it's so hard, I know.
> I'm here with you.
> antiguaI really fell into a funk this year. Homesick, resentful, isolated... all the good stuff. Being witness to others' abilities to imbibe and not having to pay a price for it just makes it all the worse. That whole "why me" tape keeps playing its endless loop during the holidays. New Year's Eve should be interesting. That might the right time to take up an intricate and absorbing new hobby (got to think about finding one, hmmm...). Distraction, redirecting my attention.
**What do you do to get through these situations, Antigua?**
Being able to talk about it here does help.
CS
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