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Posted by kara lynne on April 5, 2004, at 14:17:56
In reply to Re: gg, fallen4 » kara lynne, posted by fayeroe on April 5, 2004, at 11:35:39
Thank you for your prayers. I wish you were here too--that is the kind of thing I need the most help with. I called on some people to help me initially but no one seemed to be able to step it up a notch, and I was too overwhelmed to do anything beyond the obvious. The 'psychic' has suddenly lost her steam. I met her for the first time yesterday in a meditation class where I was talking about my cat. She told me she had a strong feeling about the cat being in someone's house and offered to help me go door to door. So she came yesterday and said she would come back today, but suddenly she can't come and it's up to me to do everything I was too overwhelmed to do in the first place. I told her it was hard to keep going and try to keep despair at bay and she said, 'Well you can give up hope right now if you want'. Thanks-- just what I need right now, some obnoxious, abrasive tough love. Suddenly I am an a** for not doing enough, when it started out yesterday that she 'saw' the cat in a house and was going to come and find it for me come hell or high water.
So another friend of mine is making up new fliers with color photos of my sweet Alice. She is coming over this afternoon and will help me staple them, plaster them, throughout the neighborhood. But it's been five excruciating nights without her.
Thank you for understanding, thank you for telling me of lost animals coming back a week later. I can't tell you how much it helps.
Posted by fayeroe on April 6, 2004, at 9:25:41
In reply to My cat is gone., posted by kara lynne on April 3, 2004, at 16:52:39
Any word on Alice?
Posted by kara lynne on April 6, 2004, at 13:56:58
In reply to Re: My cat is gone. » kara lynne, posted by fayeroe on April 6, 2004, at 9:25:41
Last night my friend came over with fliers and we went around the neighborhood putting them up. Some woman---*with her dog*----shouted, 'You're not supposed to staple anything to the trees!'. So I don't know how long they'll stay up. Every morning I have to wake up and realize she is not next to me. It's just so hard not knowing; a couple of my friends feel strongly that she'll be back. Another person says she's with a child who has no one else. I will get the child another cat. I want my Alice back.
Today I will put more signs up, and someone will help me go door to door.
This sucks.
Thanks for asking.
Posted by Fallen4myT on April 6, 2004, at 14:06:17
In reply to No word on Alice., posted by kara lynne on April 6, 2004, at 13:56:58
Sorry on no word YET but I still think there is HOPE...I SEE ABOVE HAVE HAD A CAT GONE in a high traffic area...two weeks...so yes hope...A few ideas...the posters are GREAT...TAKE THEM TO EVERY VET IN THE AREA...ALSO GO DAILY NO CALLS ..GO ...TO ALL THE ANIMAL CONTROL AND SHELTERS IN THE AREA...ASK YOUR LOCAL PENNEY SAVER MAG TO POST A PIC AND AD....FREE THEY USUALLY DO IT FREE..best of luck and many many prayers to you and your kit
Posted by fayeroe on April 6, 2004, at 18:22:50
In reply to Re: No word on Alice. » kara lynne, posted by Fallen4myT on April 6, 2004, at 14:06:17
kara lynne: the landlord next door just trapped all the stray cats that i was feeding and took them to the shelter!!!! i just found out!!! go to the shelter every day.........you may find her there! keep on keepin on , girl!!!
Posted by kara lynne on April 6, 2004, at 19:22:28
In reply to Re: No word on Alice. » Fallen4myT, posted by fayeroe on April 6, 2004, at 18:22:50
Thanks...Alice has an identification microchip, so if she ends up at the local pound they will alert me. I called them and they said the animals get checked for them three different times, so that would be the best case scenario. I haven't been able to get myself to go there physically, but I have someone checking the website where they update pictures of captured animals twice a day.
Aching,
Kara
Posted by kara lynne on April 8, 2004, at 0:39:05
In reply to fayeroe, posted by kara lynne on April 6, 2004, at 19:22:28
to die in my sleep. My friend asked me if I was suicidal and I said, No, I just don't want to live without Alice. There is a distinction, if slight.
I know it sounds over the top, but that little animal was all I came home to at night. She was my comfort, she gave me a purpose I really don't feel any longer. Of course I have things I am supposed to do to make a better life, but I just don't care about them. I don't know how to part with a creature I have been inseparable from for the last ten years.
I don't understand how my employer expects me to put on a happy face and make sixty calls about easter open meditation on Sunday. She is supposed to be someone who would understand this, and she just doesn't seem to. I know there is nothing anyone can do. I know it's not good to wallow, but neither can I just buck up and move on.
It's been one week tonight and I feel worse as the realization sinks in. It looks like I will never see Alice again.
Posted by fayeroe on April 8, 2004, at 6:36:37
In reply to Last night I prayed, posted by kara lynne on April 8, 2004, at 0:39:05
I understand. I felt that a part of me left when my dog, Tippy, died. I understand totally how you can feel that way. I'm sorry that your boss doesn't understand it. Perhaps she has never had the experience that we've had loving animals and being loved in return........I would not give up on finding her though. As we've all told you, animals do turn up after being gone a long time. Please keep checking the shelter pictures. And don't give up on the flyers and such. xoxoxo
Posted by Jai Narayan on April 8, 2004, at 8:33:14
In reply to Last night I prayed, posted by kara lynne on April 8, 2004, at 0:39:05
> to die in my sleep. My friend asked me if I was suicidal and I said, No, I just don't want to live without Alice. There is a distinction, if slight.
* My sister had a little gray cat for 16 years and she died a few months ago. It was an incredible loss. I sent her a little gray cat that was designed as an eye pillow. My sister took that soft twin of her cat and tucked it into her bed next to her heart....she still sleeps with that stuffed cat....recently they went to the coast together. It has been an amazing process. I send her a work book on the death or loss of an animal. It's amazing how much these little creatures live in our hearts and minds.I hope your pet comes back but if not maybe you could find a way to work through the mourning....
Your animal would not want you to follow....
death is always way too final.Last week a friend died of a massive heart attack....honestly I thought she would be around for a long time. It was sudden with no warning. We are all stunned. The family is in shock.
It's never easy to let someone you love go no matter if they are human or animal.
Our love does go on.
Posted by octopusprime on April 8, 2004, at 20:49:01
In reply to Re: Last night I prayed, posted by Jai Narayan on April 8, 2004, at 8:33:14
kara lynne,
you are strong.
i am so sorry about your kitty and you are right to be hurting. take some time to take good care of yourself, walks, bubble baths, and such.it is right to mourn the loss of our loved ones.
the hard thing to remember is that the darkest days, the ones where we believe we can't live without those we have lost, are temporary and will pass.look back on this board and see how you grieved for some of your other losses. and here you are today, loving as ever, still alive and working at a new job.
so remember your kitty. and pray for alice. and pray for yourself, that your suffering shall end, that you will draw strength from the spirits, and you too shall live another day.
be well. i'm thinking of you.
Posted by kara lynne on April 8, 2004, at 22:14:57
In reply to Re: Last night I prayed, posted by octopusprime on April 8, 2004, at 20:49:01
Posted by gardenergirl on April 9, 2004, at 1:25:06
In reply to Re: Last night I prayed, posted by octopusprime on April 8, 2004, at 20:49:01
Oh kara lynne,
It's so hard to mourn for a loved pet around others who do not share in our love. I'm so sorry. We understand, we truly do. And we do not give up hope.I like Jai's version of a substitute. Nothing will take the place of Alice if that becomes permanently necessary, but there are things you can do that may fill the need.
Please take care. I'm praying for you and for Alice.
gg
Posted by Wildflower on April 9, 2004, at 14:03:56
In reply to Last night I prayed, posted by kara lynne on April 8, 2004, at 0:39:05
Oh Kara, I wish there was something I could do to help. All I can offer are my positive thoughts and wishes that Alice comes home. Losing a pet (temporarily or permanently) is so hard to deal with. Those without pets never seem to understand the endless comfort a pet brings...
Please know that I'm thinking of you and Alice and praying for the best.
Posted by kara lynne on April 9, 2004, at 15:59:54
In reply to Re: Last night I prayed, posted by Wildflower on April 9, 2004, at 14:03:56
Thank you, Jai, Gardenergirl, Wildflower. I deeply appreciate your thoughts and prayers. I keep thinking there is more I should do to find her: Yesterday I called another shelter (in a terrible area far away, but one she might have been taken to). The guy on the phone said it didn't matter if she had a microchip, if she was at all 'skittish' they would put her down after five working days. I flew down there in the middle of work and had to walk into my nightmare: passing cages and cages of animals about to be put to death. One dog in particular haunted me; he was singled out and put in the room with the feral cats. He was a mutt with the sweetest disposition, isolated because he was 'ill', and going to be put down in a few days if he didn't spontaneously get better. I reached my hand in the cage and he licked me and looked up at me with the sweetest face I've ever seen. I started to decompose. The assistant was very nice to me considering what kind of place this was. I don't understand why I was the only one there who found it so torturous. Then I had to go through the list of euthanized pets to see if maybe she was on it. Thank God I couldn't find her. When I first arrived I saw a white cat peacefully sleeping in a cage and I ran up to it, but it wasn't my Alice.
I called a grief counselor last night, someone my friend has talked to in the past and liked very much. She had good things to say, but it felt so canned to me. Like she had a printout that she read to everyone experiencing loss. It was about letting yourself feel the grief, knowing that it is your capacity to love, and loving yourself through the grief. All good things. I will try to see if any of it can sink in.
I miss my Alice so much. I keep thinking I hear her. I keep feeling like in a minute I will get to see her. I keep thinking it's my fault; that if I didn't move here she wouldn't have gone. That I must have been wrong in some way or this wouldn't have happened. I still feel like my life has no purpose without her.
Posted by gardenergirl on April 10, 2004, at 11:24:13
In reply to Re: Last night I prayed, posted by kara lynne on April 9, 2004, at 15:59:54
Posted by fayeroe on April 11, 2004, at 9:46:17
In reply to Re: No word on Alice. » kara lynne, posted by Fallen4myT on April 6, 2004, at 14:06:17
please e.mail me at weezilgirl@hotmail.com
Posted by fayeroe on April 11, 2004, at 21:33:51
In reply to Re: Last night I prayed, posted by kara lynne on April 9, 2004, at 15:59:54
kara lynne: I hurt so much for you. There are excellent animal loss sites on the web. I know how you feel about the shelter. I HATE having to go to one. To me they are the saddest place in the world. If they could all be sanctuaries!!
Don't give up yet........you may still get Alice back. Remember that my daughter's cat, Wombat, was gone three weeks and we got her back! My friend Julie reminded me that her Lucy was gone two months and came home with her front leg hung in her collar....so you never, ever know!!!!
xoxoxoxo Pat
Posted by rainyday on April 13, 2004, at 20:29:52
In reply to My cat is gone., posted by kara lynne on April 3, 2004, at 16:52:39
Nothing can compare to the loss of a kitty. I cry when I think of my very own Psycho Kitty ever departing. My cats Rocky and Bullwinkle (brothers from the same litter) died after 18 years each. My previous kitty Rascal died at 10 years of age (tried to outrun a truck). Their love is so precious: they really do choose YOU instead of the other way around.
Before Rocky & Bullwinkle I had Lois, who had been feral and not really suited to indoor living. She ran away after I moved. I looked for her for 10 weeks or so, posting pictures and calling shelters, breaking my heart each time. I finally gave up and adopted Rocky & Bully.
One year afterwards, Rocky escaped (he pushed out a window screen from the second floor) and disappeared for over a week. Guess who we found while looking for him..
Lois. She was about a quarter mile away. Lived in someones basement in the winter, came for food occasionally in the summer. I brought her home - risen from the supposed dead!!! And within a week the prodigal Rocky reappeared lolling on the front door step. Lois took off again notlong after (who could blame her) but we shared vets fees with the family she had adpoted.
To sum up: Ya never know. Pets are so precious (I have no kids, so my kitties are my babies), but they do live separate lives from us humans!
Wish for the best, but do not wait for it - my advice.
rainyday
Posted by Fallen4MyT on April 14, 2004, at 17:53:21
In reply to for Fallen4myT » Fallen4myT, posted by fayeroe on April 11, 2004, at 9:46:17
Posted by kara lynne on April 14, 2004, at 21:10:41
In reply to Re: My cat is gone., posted by rainyday on April 13, 2004, at 20:29:52
It is two weeks today. This has wrecked me. I called a therapist and asked his fees; he chortled jovially and said, 'They're high, really high'. When he told me it was $160 an hour I started to cry. He said, 'Well, I'm glad we got that dealt with right up front!' I was speechless. He gave me the name of someone else, but she is also pretty high.
I found out yesterday that the phone number on all the fliers we put up was incorrect. It was one digit off and no one, including myself, caught it. It was as if the final ray of hope had vanished. Even if someone had found my Alice, the number on the fliers was an 'invalid pager'. I feel like everything was working against me, including the rain that came right after she disappeared, which couldn't have been worse timing. It rarely rains here, but it did for two nights after she left.
I miss her desperately. She was all I had, my comfort, my company. I honestly don't want to live right now. I won't carry it out myself, but I wouldn't mind if I vanished as well.
Posted by fayeroe on April 15, 2004, at 7:08:17
In reply to thanks rainyday, posted by kara lynne on April 14, 2004, at 21:10:41
kara lynne: what a disappointment for you!Don't quit now! you never know about lost animals. i personally think someone probably took her in. so, i'd put new flyers out with the correct number. i feel so badly for you and wish i could be there and help you look for her. yesterday my oldest daughter was buying groceries and met a guy that she had gone to school with. his parents were with him and his mother told her that she had found the flyer, that we asked the paperboy to put in his papers, for our lost cat "Newman Marcus". THAT WAS 26 YEARS AGO! She is going to give it to Colleen. AND we got him back then because of that flyer.....I had totally forgotten about the "newspaper" trick!! He was gone for over a week. Try that! xoxoxo
Posted by Wildflower on April 20, 2004, at 14:58:59
In reply to Re: thanks rainyday » kara lynne, posted by fayeroe on April 15, 2004, at 7:08:17
Posted by kara lynne on April 22, 2004, at 1:54:06
In reply to Any word yet? (nm), posted by Wildflower on April 20, 2004, at 14:58:59
At least if I knew one way or the other I might have some closure. I would still miss her, but I wouldn't be wondering, wondering, wondering, with this terrible heartbreak.
Thank you for asking Wildflower.
Posted by Wildflower on April 23, 2004, at 9:03:14
In reply to no : (, posted by kara lynne on April 22, 2004, at 1:54:06
I'm sorry to hear that.
Feel free to email me if you need to talk, vent, etc. (I think you still have access to my email address)
Take care.
Posted by fayeroe on May 5, 2004, at 21:51:34
In reply to no : (, posted by kara lynne on April 22, 2004, at 1:54:06
Hi, any word on your kitty? I am keeping you in my thoughts~~~~Pat
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