Posted by karen_kay on March 6, 2007, at 15:56:31
In reply to I don't feel human, posted by ralphrost on February 26, 2007, at 20:56:03
hello rf. i'm kk.
i'm sorry to hear that you don't feel human. i think a big part of being human is the range of emotions we all feel, including sometimes the lack thereof. i've heard a song by modest mouse with a line something like this:
as life gets longer awful feels softer, well it feels pretty soft to me.
and if it takes (poop) to make bliss, well i feel pretty blissfully.perhaps it's something like that? maybe you've just gotten so used to the (poop, sorry have to be careful with the words, as i was jsut blocked and i'm not quite ready for another block. not quite sure if i have the 'protector' thingie on or not) that even the good stuff just blends in with it?
then again, maybe i'm full of poop too? why not try to thik of things that used to make you happy and rediscover them? the beauty in coffee? or a smoke? or a phone call to an old lover or friend?
or maybe find things that can make you laugh. i guarantee babble will make you feel something. whether it be anger or confusion (ever read some of mister bob's posts?), passion (of course, i'm talking about myself here), compassion, or a variety of other emotions.
good luck rf (mind if i call you that?). i hope you find something that aids you in feeling something. i rememb er someone mentioning something about reading. can't remember what you said about reading, if you're up to it or not. but, what about camuus? umm, what's the name of that book. thinking for a second. is it, lemme try the title with double quotes and see if it works here... "the stranger" not at all a tough read, but maybe you can relate (not that you'd really relate but in a metaphorical, if that's even the word i'm looking for, sense)
again, good luck.
poster:karen_kay
thread:736602
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