Posted by karen_kay on March 15, 2007, at 7:26:39
In reply to Re: I don't feel human » karen_kay, posted by ralphrost on March 8, 2007, at 20:09:01
ha! most of the joy i find in coffee is in the caffiene! not a thing wrong with that dear! and that's not a joke in the slightest. oh, and that yummy cream i pour into it too. that's the joy. and the warmth running down my throat. that's joy right there.
about self esteem: those issues really stink, don't they? i'm in that 'i'm a baby adn worry about mr kk all the time right now' when he leaves for work (and that's totally not me. i'm a cold-hearted woman, just like every man writes songs about). but, i'm going to that child-like stage where i cry before he leaves for work, as he is all i have in this world right now and god borbid something were to happen to him, as my life would be destroyed. well, enough of my sillly issues right now, right? i try to ignore them as much as possible :)
about violin: yowsa wowsa! i've always admired people with musical abilities. i can't carry a tune with a bucket, even though i sing with every song. i play kazoo and air guitar. actually,i rock out to air guitar. even video games with kareoke (what language is that? like i'm supposed to be able to spell that?) boo me off the stage! but, if there were to be an air guitar game, i'd rock the house! but, to be able to play chello or violin, i'd carry it with me everywhere. i'd play everywhere. n my fron tporch. in the middle of the street. i'd share my talent with everyone. that's the one thing i wish, that i had some sort of musical or artistic ability, but alas i fall short. oh, but to dance even. or even to walk without falling o my butt. or even finger paint.
maybe it's better for you to allow the old you to reunite with the new you? that way you can realize that there are aspects of you that have nothing to do with depression. that perhaps you can enjoy things you used to do, that have nothing to do with your depression dear. like playing violin. and there are also new things you want to do as well, like water skiing naked :)
i don't think you need to stop doing things you like, jsut find a balance and realize that the 'old' things don't define you as being depressed, you know? i used to run aroudn and flash people, but that doesn't mean i still don't like to (ok, bad example :)
take care rf and have the best day ever
kk
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