Posted by scratchpad on March 8, 2007, at 10:31:46
In reply to Re: This is the tough stuff for me » scratchpad, posted by Declan on March 8, 2007, at 1:06:20
> >Never mind self-love; right now I would settle for self-tolerance.<
>
> Look SP, it just sucks.Wow, talk about tough love.
> When I go for my drivers licence I have a choice of looking schizophrenic (attempting to smile) or depressed (not).
> Naturally I choose depressed (why should I put myself out?).
> It is just so awful and you/I know it won't get any better....though I think we will become inured to it, bit by bit, over time.I was hoping for a better outlook than this for myself. Don't I deserve to be happy with how I look to the world?
> Will we have learned by the end that looks don't matter?
> Not a chance.Again, it's not the looks so much. I don't want my tummy rolls to disappear. I want to be OK with those rolls - to love them. I want to love myself. I've never been taught that I'm the least bit worthy of it. Where do I start?
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