Posted by kara lynne on July 18, 2004, at 16:05:46
In reply to Re: There Is Hope, posted by Rigby on June 15, 2004, at 17:58:01
Hi Rigby,
It is late-mid July and I am just reading this for the first time, but I am heartened to come here and find your messages. I figured this thread would be as long gone as my cat, but here were your messages when I checked. If nothing else, I appreciate so much that you seem to understand how I feel.Needless to say my Alice is still missing. I took in two kittens about two months ago, and had a lot of trouble adjusting...despite everyone thinking (myself included) that it would help to have them around. My allergies have been worse than ever before in my life, and I haven't bonded in the way I usually do to any pet that crosses my path. I still miss Alice so much it was almost worse initially, because I would keep thinking how they were not her. But when I went to look for cats, each time the one I was drawn to had just been taken, so finally I took these two instead of waiting. Maybe there was a reason I couldn't get another white cat (even though I wasn't trying to replace her, I still liked having a white cat). Maybe there was no reason at all.
An interesting note: Alice went missing March 31st. One of the kittens I took in was born April 1st. She was found, umbilical cord still attached, by a dog who took her home to his owner, gently tucked into his teeth by the scruff of her neck. This kitten, completely unlike the other one, does very specific things that Alice used to, and has a lot of the same body movements. I have grown much more attached to her, but I wouldn't want to separate the two now...they do everything together even though they're not from the same litter.
I still miss Alice every day. I was mentioning it to my mother the other day and she said, 'Maybe she found someone else she's happier with'. This was not what I wanted to hear. I would like nothing more than to come home and find her waiting for me at the front door, or at least find out what happened to her. Instead I have this little grey and white kitten that the dog saved, lying next to me, peacefully sleeping while I write this.
Thanks again Rigby.
poster:kara lynne
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