Posted by alligator on November 14, 2006, at 23:19:21
In reply to Both my parents died. I'm hopeless and can't feel., posted by soulnik on May 23, 2005, at 0:08:57
Hey,
I'm not going to say...oh i'm so sorry for your loss. That's what everyone says, and it doesn't help anything. It doesn't do anything. It just makes you feel worse about yourself. I wanted to let you know that your not alone. I've never personally met anyone else whose parents have died...for a while I thought I was alone too. Both of my parents and my 15 year old brother died in a car accident on February 19, 2006. All I have left is my brother who is two years older than me. We're both in college, and I'm in my second year now. It's still hard to pay attention in class, honestly I think I'm failing and I have no idea what to do! I have soo many problems as it is, but after the accident I felt as if I had nothing to live for. And get this. My grandma was in the accident too. Luckily she lived. I'm always thinking...What if? Like what if I had gone with them like I was supposed to? Would I be alive now, or would the accident have happened? What if they had had side airbags in the car like my dad had mentioned in the past few months before? I'm sure my little brother would still be alive. I feel lost without them, especially my mom. I have so much to say, there were so many ironic things that had to do with the accident. It was my best friends birthday and I was having fun while my parents were dying. It's the worst feeling in the world. I hate meeting new people now, because I feel like if they weren't there during that time, they will never understand me. I like people to know about what happened, I can't stop thinking about it because it's my entire life now. It's so hard though...what am I supposed to say...Hi nice to meet you, guess what? my parents and little brother died in a car accident. That's not a very great way to start off a friendship...they'll just feel sorry for me. I also have this feeling that any guy that likes me seems to be scared away when I tell them what happened. They think I'm emotionally unstable. Anyways I could talk forever...but i've never met anyone who has had their parents die also. You can definitely talk to me anytime!! I know the situations are slightly different...and I won't be able to understand exactly how you feel...but pretty close to it. Please write back!
Allison
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