Posted by JenStar on May 23, 2005, at 11:55:19 [reposted on May 28, 2005, at 13:21:23 | original URL]
In reply to Both my parents died. I'm hopeless and can't feel., posted by soulnik on May 23, 2005, at 0:08:57
hi Soulnik,
welcome to the boards. It's good that you are posting here.I'm very sorry for your loss. Very sorry. My feelings & thoughts go out to you in this difficult time.
I'm really at a loss for anything to say. I know you don't want to hear platitudes, so I won't give them. But I give you my best wishes that things do get better and that your depression lifts. No one deserves to be as unhappy as you are right now.
If you are unwell yourself, there is no way you could have cared more for your parents. Your family may be wrong and trying to blame someone because they are angry and sad, but it is not your fault. I hope you know that.
My advice, for what it's worth, is to take small steps. Wash your sheets in piping hot water at least 2X/week - that will help kill allergens and mites. Buy a mattress cover to help protect you from the allergens, and wash it often. Get some mouse traps. What makes you happy? Does anything (did anything ever) make you happy? Do that thing, even if you don't want to. You're stuck in a pit of unhappiness and it's up to you to take the tiny baby steps that will help you get out. I know it seems that these things are meaningless and stupid, but they are not. Over time, taking care of yourself will help you feel better. Please feel better.
I hope things improve. Thinking of you!
JenStar
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