Posted by ghost on May 24, 2005, at 18:58:27 [reposted on May 28, 2005, at 13:21:23 | original URL]
In reply to Re: Both my parents died. I'm hopeless and can't feel. » soulnik, posted by JenStar on May 23, 2005, at 11:55:19
soulnik,
i don't post much these days, but i do keep tabs on posts and what's going on. i have no magical words for you, but i did want to respond to your comments on your looks and your unhappiness with them.
i have the lowest self-esteem of anyone i know. i can't even talk about it with most people, i think so little of my looks. i'm fat, i'm ugly. i think i'm freakishly hideous. i prefer the internet world to the real world because i don't have to deal with the disappointment that others have when they meet me.
however, that being said, for some reason, i have found a few people in the world who disagree. they don't see me as i see me, and i am sure that there are (or will be) people who feel the same way about you. there are so many people in the world, the odds are in our favor, right? even though we think lowly of ourselves on the outside, there's always going to be someone who disagrees, because they see things through different eyes than our own.
technically, i guess i'm supposed to say that "looks aren't everything" and "what matters is what's on the inside." but i know that's not true, first hand. i'll never forget the look of disappointment on one guy's face the day we met for the first time after knowing each other online for awhile. he saw me as i saw me, i think, and that hurt.
i know how you feel, but i also know that somewhere out there, there are people who disagree and find you beautiful, because really-- you are. we all are. in the eyes of the right person.
i'm sure i'd see you as beautiful if i met you. it sounds like we have some things in common.
take care,
ghost
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