Posted by deirdrehbrt on May 31, 2003, at 8:55:09
In reply to Re: DID after other diagnoses. « Pfinstegg » deirdrehbrt, posted by Pfinstegg on May 30, 2003, at 21:51:23
Pfinstegg,
You are right in that this is a lot to deal with, and I don't 'want' to deal with it. I have to though, and really have no choice.
My therapist is good and competent. She is gentle when she needs to be, and firm when that too is appropriate.
As far as sensation, the only thing that I don't usually feel is physical pain. Touch, as long as non-threatening is OK. I can feel the warmth of sunshine, the breeze on my skin, etc. I usually feel headaches although my doctor has told me that I am still up an about when most people would not be walking.
The scariest thing isn't that this happens, but rather why it happens. That's the part that I don't want to deal with. It's hard to admit that people whom you love have hurt you badly. It's hard to realize that there are parts of your life that you can't remember. Perhaps I'll be able to remember them when I am more in touch with my alters.
I'm told that being a multiple is an intelligent creative means for dealing with severe trauma. It doesn't really feel that way right now. I'm still scared, of what happened to me, and of not knowing what has happened when I find I've lost some amount of time. Either way though, it's still scary.
Thank you for your encouragement, I do appreciate it.
Dee.
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