Posted by tinydancer on May 14, 2004, at 13:26:39
In reply to issues with talking in sessions..., posted by B2chica on May 14, 2004, at 12:40:30
Hey.
I think you're being really hard on yourself unnecessarily. The important thing is that you have taken steps and you are going to your sessions. You haven't given up, even though its very hard.
How long have you been with your current T? Are you satisfied with the treatment you are getting? I am also a self injurer. I know how hard it is. I understand being tired of your own self and your own problems.
Can you get more than one appointment a week? Also, I find that it is best for me to schedule my appointments first thing in the day and not to schedule anything else. I plan ahead that I'm not going to be doing well. When I was working I did not work on the day that I went to therapy for example. Is that possible for you?
Right now, try to stop beating yourself up for the cutting. Just stop a minute, take a deep breath, and let it go. You are coping in the only way you can. You did cut, and that moment is over now. Now you can try to forgive yourself, and move on, and do your best to get through the hard moments as best as you can.
I find that the harder we fight back against instinctive behavior and feelings, the harder they get on us. Try letting go a little bit and trust yourself to get through this. You don't just stop cutting one day, suddenly. Doesn't work that way!
Sending you lots of hugs and hope that you feel welcome and safe to post here as much as you need to.
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