Posted by cubic_me on May 14, 2004, at 18:30:30
In reply to issues with talking in sessions..., posted by B2chica on May 14, 2004, at 12:40:30
I can really relate to how you are feeling too. It sounds like you're working through a hard part of therapy - but it will pass and it will get easier.
I sometimes feel like I'll never get better too, and after more than a year of therapy I still cut sometimes, but that doesn't mean that therapy isn't working, it just means that I need my old coping mechanisms sometimes. Therapy is hard, and occasionally it brings up (or represses) more than our 'normal' coping mechanisms can cope with - sometimes the balence is tipped into SI, but thats nothing to be ashamed of. It's good that you tell your therapist about the cutting (I'm kinda the opposite, in that I don't bring it up unless she does). If you absolutely need the cutting for now, that's fine as long as it's safe (using clean blades and not going too deep), it's something that will reduce as you begin to aquire new, healthier coping mechanisms.
Therapy often wipes me out for the rest of the day too. I tend to prefer afternoon sessions so that I can at least do something useful in the morning. If I have to do other things after, I often write down my feelings and leave them 'on the page' as it were, until I have time to come back and process them.
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