Posted by lonelygal2 on February 7, 2005, at 12:03:37
In reply to Re: i'm crazy., posted by lonelygal2 on February 7, 2005, at 9:57:50
arghh.. so i did get a reply from old t, it was a sort of form letter, impersonal i can't talk to you b/c it will prevent you from establishing new relationship, etc. but at the bottom were like directions about each sentence taht seh wrote, and well seeing that i have freaked out. i wrote back something like wow, thanks that everything has to be phrased correctly and have the appearance of professionalism, and that nothing is real, and that i was so pissed that i ever thought seh cared.
i'm so hurt.
i want to do something irrational.
> thanks bent. i do feel like everyone i had to talk to- old t, old pdoc, newer old therapist ... they are all slipping away.
> i e-mailed my old, old t last night again and i know i'm gonna be ignored, i'm just really desperate for someone to hear me. b/c i am not okay, and i feel like i need someone to help me urgently. i feel like i shouldn't go to a hospital or anything b/c i can sit it out, it just hurts unbelievably, when i distract myself those times are better than others, but when i'm doing nothing i can't stand it. bad thoughts.
> i feel like i've become such a bad person and that noone would ever really love or care for me and that i'm all alone in this whole life thing.
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