Posted by lonelygal2 on February 7, 2005, at 16:36:19
In reply to Re: i'm crazy., posted by mair on February 7, 2005, at 16:10:01
i think i'm too old to be wanting a family that cares... that i'm old enough to have to be responsible for myself and not need or rely on anyone... that some things i should just let go...(i feel like i can close my eyes and remember exactly waht it was like to be say 16 and that all that happened years ago is still haunting me now and very much in the present adding to all the confusion i feel now)... and at this point it seems like it will be for forever before i get any stability in my life... in med school, with lots more training still awaiting me even after i graduate... and that i won't ever have a normal life anytime soon.. everything is too stressful, and without support its too hard.... and i feel like when i was younger i had so much potential ahead of me (i was so anal and always trying to prove myself to people), and now i just feel like i've lost all my drive and that i've given up so much and i've stopped trying to prove to myself that i am smart and have lost all my self-esteem and feel so stupid most of the time.... to sum it up, 24 for me is very much a state of confusion.
> LG - How do you feel about 24?
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> Mair
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