Posted by Dinah on January 3, 2006, at 20:37:46
In reply to bad day, posted by ghost on January 3, 2006, at 20:30:07
I feel the same way. Today when I went up to my son's school, a bunch of moms were gathered together talking. And I really wanted to join them. But I know I'm fat, and I dress oddly. And I was too scared to get out of my car because I was sure they wouldn't want to have anything to do with me.
I sometimes suspect that I am rather rude in my attempts to spare other people me.
I know it's not really pc to say so, but I think looks do matter in this society. And I say that as a fat ugly rather oddly dressing person.
But sometimes I wonder how much it's a self fulfilling prophecy.
And sometimes I wonder if I shouldn't give in and dress like everyone else. But honestly, I feel really really freakish when I dress like everyone else. Like it's not bad enough I'm odd, but I'm trying to pass as normal. Isn't that somehow worse?
I'm sorry. My attitude isn't very positive. And I don't necessarily believe that other people who are plain and overweight are socially unacceptable. Just me. But I do understand other people who feel the same way about themselves.
FWIW, I don't think you're ugly at all.
poster:Dinah
thread:594911
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