Posted by fairywings on January 9, 2006, at 10:21:04
In reply to Re: I know this is going to sound stupid **trigger** » fairywings, posted by muffled on January 8, 2006, at 22:00:42
> ***yeah I got badness inside too that I can't make go away.
> >(((muffy)))
>>My husband had a crazy upbringing but he's way better adapted than me. He keeps teeling me its all in my mind, I just have to decide I gonna be betterand not shy and just go for it like he did and everything will be fine.
**That's the prob. w/ppl who just went for it and it turned out okay, their perspective is different. Okay, it's all in our mind, but that doesn't make the fear any less real or scary.
>>He don't get it either. Makes me wonder about myself even more. What the hells my problem anyways.
** Don't make it undermine your confidence any more. It's hard to understand what holds us back, it's hard to even start to think about it. When I do, my thoughts just get all jumbled up because I have no direction. Like a big traffic jam.
>>I'm just starting to be ok with my T. But the thing is, sometimes I wonder why I 'stir up the pot' as it were. Everytime things get a little intense, I freak and do SI and then my T backs off. Now she wants me to do dbt cuz I think she dunno what to do with wacko me. :(
**I don't know anything about DBT, but I've heard gg recommend it, so it must be good. I think it's about being accountable? It's pretty intense isn't it?
>>I had a therapy break and I never felt better. Went back to my old familiar comfortable (dysfunctional) patterns. But it started to go wrong again, so I went back.
***I think I'd be okay, but not change much. On the other hand, if I go I'll feel dependant, and I'm not comfy with that.
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