Posted by fairywings on January 9, 2006, at 10:31:09
In reply to Re: I know this is going to sound stupid **trigger** » fairywings, posted by annierose on January 8, 2006, at 22:20:40
> We can't answer that question for you fw, but I will give you my experience w/quitting when therapy got too overwhelming. Those overwhelming feelings are inside of you. Just because I quit, they didn't go away. Yes, I buried them, but they would come up again and again. Those feelings that are hard to get a handle on, the overwhelming ones, attachment, longing, lonliness, they don't just disappear. In fact, the more we try to ignore them, the more they like to show up at the worst times.
**Thanks Annie, I guess I know no one has that answer for me. I know I'm really dysfunctional, but I wonder if in therapy I'm dysfunctional and anxious! ; ) I wonder if I'm fighting just as hard to keep being dysfunctional because it feels safe to be in my own world, even though it's lonely. I guess there are things I have to admit to myself and face up to b4 I'll get anywhere.
>> I went back to therapy, years later. I wish I never quit the first time. BUT ... in general, I look back with regret and wonder, what if I stuck it out ...**Yeah, I feel that way about school, I beat myself for not finishing. Hindsight.
> Fairywings, I'm sorry it's so hard right now. I know. I'm there too. But I keep talking about it over and over and over again. I think I'm making progress and so will you.***How often do you go Annie? I'm sorry I don't remember. I'm sorry it's hard for you too. I guess what doesn't kill us will make us stronger.
> I hope my situation will help answer some of your questions. Why don't you ask your T these same questions. He will be able to help you too.***Yes, I can see that if I quit now, I might just have to start all over again later. I will talk to my T about it if I go back. Maybe he can help me sort it out.
Thanks Annie,
fw
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