Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on July 23, 2007, at 15:28:46
In reply to (((((LL)))), posted by muffled on July 23, 2007, at 10:29:55
I feel a little better right now. I just drank a venti cappucino. awake.
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> **LL, you not all alone in your haze. its just so foggy you can't see, but you not alone.
> I hope you keep posting. I like your writing.
> Posting here is good, trying to connect is good.
> Can you accept that the haze is there for a time, and serves a protective function. can you trust it WILL go away in its time and try not to fight it so?(((((protective haze)))))
llurpielist
1) haze is there to protect me from dark thoughts.
2) haze prevented me from cutting my vein last night
3) haze makes me sleepy - remember how I always want to sleep through my depression. here's my opportunity!
4) haze for hazy days
5) haze to make me not remember things
6) haze to banish the images of random violence. The little creechy sounds and creepies in my peripheral vision
7) haze to stop the hypervigilance that makes me think that they're talking about me. feeling conspicuously crazy. now I've taken a massive dose of Fukitol.> You will come back. Just takes time, and mebbe some help. I know it seems so slow and impossible, but it will get better.
> Can you please phone your T today and tell him of your SI?
> Tell him of your fog?don't have the guts. have no idea how he'd react. he's new to me. scared of getting some reaction like "we'll have to talk about this on Friday. I have to go now" or "can you talk to pdoc (who I don't quite jive with right now) about this? I think it's a medical issue" or "Llurpsie, you are a very accomplished person, and you don't need to ______ to prove ______. I care about you [barf] etc"
> Tell him whatever else is bothering you?
> Sigh its so hard I know.
> I'm thinking of you and wishing you some good moments.thanks muff
> Take care please,
> Muffled
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