Posted by JoniS on September 12, 2007, at 16:12:19
some of your T's real thoughts about you. Or to know if he liked you as a person?
I don't think I'm taling about a boundary crossing, because I don't believe in any relationship other than therapist / patient. But maybe I'm wrong, maybe it is a boundary crossing, just to know how he feels.
I am so hung up on the idea of being with someone who makes me feel just some of what I feel about him. I feel so stuck. I feel sad when I'm not with him and I try to tell myself that what I have is great and I need to appreciate it. .... But that head knowledge just wont make it to my heart. :(
Today, for the first time I saw the next patient. She was 15 years younger than me, much lighter, of course, and she acted very "professional.
I wondered if she was gonna go in there and discuss what I just did. (The "spiritual" love relationship they have, how it is real... blah blah, blah...) She probably has her sh*t together much more than I. How pathetic, I was jealous I guess. It just felt weird.
I gotta keep from being sad and starting to cry so - gonna go now.
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