Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on September 13, 2007, at 16:18:59
In reply to :-) (nm), posted by muffled on September 13, 2007, at 10:29:54
I had a really disturbing dream last night. T and I discussed at end of my last session a dream I had (it was the first time I ever shared a dream with him)
In the dream, I rescued 2 shirtless old men from a swimming pool during a natural disaster (don't ask- it's a dream, can't make this !(@# up). Then as I walked away, I was disgusted with myself that I saved their lives, as I wished them dead.
so, T and I agreed that the old man/men was my dad and that I still harbor primitive homocidal feelings towards him. (yep)
now LAST NIGHT I had a dream that T was coming over to do a session with me on my front porch and I went inside to get something and when I came back, T was in his swimming trunks and no shirt on. In my dream I had a panic attack and fainted. In real life I woke up with my heart pounding and that sick bile taste in my throat.
Am I crazy to think that this could be a consequence of seeing my T outside of the office. now my mind has run amok and boundaries are being crossed left and right.
And what does it mean? T = dad? I want T dead? T scares me? huh?
-Ll
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