Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on September 13, 2007, at 21:25:01
In reply to **abuse triggers** so sorry. » Honore, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on September 13, 2007, at 19:14:38
I have T tomorrow. not used to seeing him 2x a week. I dunno what to say. I'm so anxious about it.
WHY did he have to hunt me down in the parking lot?
Part of me is flattered and amused, but the part of me that needs to feel safe inside the confines of the office is frightened and scared. I just don't know what to say, or if anything I say or do will make it right again.
I'm anxious and scared.
This car thing gets into a whole lot of issues surrounding my own image. So, llurpsie drives this super shiny "hot rod". People look at me differently when I get out of that car. I don't like those looks. It's like when I wear a pair of heels and show some leggies. I don't like those looks. I prefer to hide. Part of the problem with T coming to check out the car is that it felt like he was checking ME out. very uncomfortable. shudder
:'(
I like my t too, that's the worst part. If he were a dumbass, I'd just say- hey T that was a really dumb thing to do. As it is now, I doon't want to critique him, because ... so many issues.
!@(#%&!#@(#This just makes me think of ALL of my issues with men all at once. I don't know where to start.
I wish I weren't such a sensitive noodle.
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