Posted by antigua3 on September 16, 2007, at 8:38:21
In reply to Re: How do we really forgive ourselves? **csa trigger*, posted by Daisym on September 16, 2007, at 1:18:05
Good questions, again. That's what I like about you guys--you always make me think.
The shame is that I duped myself into believing all the falsehoods in order to survive, that I actually believed my father cared. Like I said, I was lower than any form of life. Hard to explain. Kind of like, "Ha, I actually believed that I had some worth?"
In the old days, when I hurt myself when I was drinking or something, it would bring on great shame. Now that I don't drink, I still find shame when I hurt myself accidentally--like the bruise I still have because I wasn't careful enough and stepped off the curve. Those kinds of things can bring back the shame.
antigua
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