Posted by antigua3 on July 30, 2008, at 15:26:12
In reply to Re: Long term CBT***csa trigger***, posted by cbtish on July 30, 2008, at 13:28:58
Thank you everyone for your thoughtful responses. You offered some responses, which set off some alarms for me, but that's good.
To be clear, I'm not going to the pdoc to deal with issues w/my T. My T and I are working very well on this "block" of mine, of my always wanting to protect her, etc. It hits hardest when she goes away (as she is in the next week). It takes me right back to being either abandoned by my mother (sent away) or she going away. She is my mother so to speak, and she is encouraging me to let out all the feelings I had about these issues--how I couldn't tell my mother about what was going on because I had to protect, and how much worse everything was when she was away, etc.
So I feel confident in how my T & I are moving forward.The CBT is being done with my pdoc. I won't say that we are covering entirely different ground, but we are approaching it in a different way.
For example, I know understand when he says this isn't about the relationship between the two of us, as it is w/my T. I don't WANT it to be about the relationship--been there, done that with a male. All I need to know is that he cares, won't abandon me and is comitted to helping unravel the twisted way I constructed my psyche as a young child in order to survive.
It's a different way to unravel the onion, for those of you who have had to hear that analogy about what therapy is like. Yikes, I hate that. Wish I had a dime for everytime I've heard it.
question always welcome,
antigua
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