Posted by Daisym on August 1, 2008, at 0:08:54
In reply to Re: Long term CBT***csa trigger » Daisym, posted by antigua3 on July 31, 2008, at 8:29:30
Late night thoughts:
the anxiety - fear - terror cycle sounds a lot like a neurobiological response - the anxiety starts and your amygdala just takes over. It goes from 0-60 even though it isn't necessary now - the item that starts the anxiety may just be worth anxiety, not terror. But your body has learned to gear up immediately.
And I was talking to my therapist about this thread today. He pointed out that I research now almost as much as I ever did and yet I profess to trust him. I do trust him! But in thinking about why I research, I think, for me, it is about wanting to be psychologically competent. Introspection and psychological concepts were not encouraged at all when I was growing up. We didn't have family meetings, or talk about our feelings or problem solve together. (I actually heard my 16 year old say to his old brother, "wait until I bring this up at the family meeting!" I had to laugh.) So I think I've educated myself to be able to trust myself. And the more I've read, the more I'm curious. I think brain research is fascinating.
My therapist agreed that this feeds my intellect. He said he thinks I'm curious and really interested in understanding myself. And he didn't think this was about pathology. (thank goodness) But then he asked me, "are you ever unhappy with the way we work together - with the kind of therapy we do?" He didn't mean ruptures, he meant theory/approach. I hope I wasn't making him worry - it is so hard to tell when doing phone-sessions. It doesn't sound like your pdoc minds you researching - I'm glad he'll discuss it with you.
This thread has given me a lot to think about. Thanks.
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