Posted by yellowbird01 on June 22, 2009, at 19:45:27
In reply to Re: Caring (and lack of) from therapist » yellowbird01, posted by Dinah on June 22, 2009, at 19:16:08
Dinah, glad you dont mind me "stealing" your line there.. it really is a good one. :)
It's not a conversation we've really had yet, no. Honestly, I've hesitated to bring it up because I dont want to bring it to her awareness in hopes that things will just go back to normal on their own. If I point it out, I fear it makes me less of an individual to her and more of "another therapy client"... it'll become conscious and she'll possibly be more careful to keep the boundaries in place. I realize how irrational that sounds, but on some level, I fear it. I've worked hard to act like it doesnt bother me for the sake of keeping our relationship going. I suppose its getting to be time to bring it up though.
The other piece is, I dont want to bring this up and have it be further evidence to her of whatever current diagnosis or theory shes working on. It seems like everything I saw falls into that trap these days.
But uou make a good point. I'm sure her experience of my therapy is quite different than mine. I'm sure she does see her role differently in some ways than she used to. I wish I knew why. I came back to her wanting my same old T as in years past, but she's not the same old T at all.
I feel like I'm trying to tread water in the middle of a hurricane. In the pitch black, where you cant even see shore.
I imagine she is willing to discuss this openly. Shes always been open to discussing anything else I've mentioned in the past. Part of me is screaming "why bother" but I guess it's worth a shot. I may bring some of my posts in to session tomorrow as a jumping point.
Thanks for your thoughts Dinah... you always make me think!
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