Posted by Kath on February 15, 2008, at 17:41:06
In reply to daily marijuana use-questions please, posted by obsidian on February 8, 2008, at 20:59:01
> my friend thinks I am "abusing it"....so I suppose that means that it is OK to use it, but not so much??
> 1)how much is too much?******I suspect you will be able to find out if you're abusing by saying the following commitment-type statements & see how if 'feels' in your gut. How would you feel making each commitment:
"I commit to not smoking up for the rest of the day"
"I commit to not smoking up today & tomorrow"
"I commit to not smoking up the week"
"I commit to not smoking up for a month"
etc. - get the idea? To really get any accurate information from this, it'd be necessary to actually MEAN IT when you say it. To see how it would feel to actually KNOW that you're not going to do it.****
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> my pdoc said the pot is "not good for YOU", as in not someone with your proclivities toward depression and anxiety'*******just read a report that for people who possess 2 types of genes, smoking weed can cause them to have schizophrenia. Pretty serious eh wot? My son (23) was diagnosed with sch. a year ago. He started doing weed at 13! Sad but true***
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> 2)I say 'well damn...if I am high who cares if I am anxious or depressed??'
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********I guess if you have to be high to NOT feel anxious or depressed, there's something that needs helping. Smoking anything is harmful to your lungs. Not preaching here...just replying to your points.*****> 3) I have a real "f*ck it, I don't care type of attitude", so much of my inclination goes to the direction of continuing to smoke what is that??
********sounds like a dependency on smoking weed in order to cope with life. I bet a lot of people who are depressed smoke up to self-medicate. Are you on meds?****
> I find myself thinking "I really don't think they need to worry...I think they (my T and pdoc) are over-reacting".********what do you think would be a reason for concern? Maybe that'd be good for you to look at. Like, "I would be concerned about my weed use if:....."*******
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> I know this won't be a big deal, and I think "isn't that nice that they care?" and I start to think I am letting them down, and like maybe I'm supposed to make some sort of choice...like change direction*********do you have any inclination to change directions? do you do other drugs? YOU are the important one. People who care about you are obviously concerned about you. You are worth taking care of!*****
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> but they don't seem to prefer that I stop smoking, keep smoking, or whatever...my pdoc is "well, you're going to get depressed", and my T is like "well, what is the plan going to be...like I am heading toward something (meaning a mental crash of some kind)*****if you do other drugs also, you could be heading for a mental crash, like my son. One guy in my son's mental health group has bipolar & it seems to have stemmed from smoking weed, although I suspect he might have done other drugs also. I think an important factor might be if you do other drugs.******
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> as if to say "well, it's your choice, but SOMETHING is going to happen"
> but the truth is that NOTHING will likely happen, because I won't even be here(mentally) anymore******you'd have to be in a pretty bad state to 'not be here' mentally. Like, perhaps a zombie!!! When my son was REALLY psychotic, he was really screwed up bigtime, but believe me, he was THERE.....he was suffering a LOT********
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> so that what they are saying couldn't possibly be true
> and it feels like they are talking about somebody else they imagine me to be*****what exactly are they saying? Maybe they're really scared for you***
> because I know it's no big deal, and that I will make it back to reality, just not yet
***sounds like they're afraid that you might get into really serious problems as a result of smoking weed. Do you smoke often? Daily? Hourly?*****
> thanks for reading,
> obsid
******Please don't take my post as being critical of you obsidian, because I'm not. It sounds like people who care about you are concerned & you feel there's no cause for concern. I guess a lot of factors would come into it. Are you on meds, do you do other drugs, how much, how often, how is it affecting your life, etc. I think the great thing is that you're looking at your life & evaluating things. It's good you care enough about yourself to be willing to look at the issue.I give you my warm support. Kath
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