Posted by Kath on February 16, 2008, at 17:38:44
In reply to Re: daily marijuana use-questions please » Kath, posted by obsidian on February 16, 2008, at 1:54:05
> none of the above statements feel very good, but alas, I will run out soon, and I am thus far not planning on purchasing anymore pot
>
> after the first one I was like "what!? for the whole rest of the day!?"(((((((you))))))) ~smile~
> oh Kath, I am so sorry :-( I wish you and your son well.*****Thanks. he's doing WAY better than he was. Lately there are times when he's getting pretty close to how he used to be, in a sorta 'being there' way & 'being with-it' way. Sometimes he's probably about 90% like the old him - maybe even more. He's even got a part time job now...2 shifts a week. Who knows how he'll do. I wonder if he weren't on risperidone & seroquel, how he'd be. I wonder if they can make him sort of withdrawn or out-of-it***
> yeah...my genes aren't squeaky clean as far as mental illness goes...it seems to be all over my damn gene pool, but less than well understood
****isn't mental illness crappy!! & it seems to happen to mostly such nice people!*****
> oh yeah I am, but I don't really think they are going to help much in my case...I think my issues are less biochemical and more a potpourri of dysfunction....so I take them because I think my T and pdoc mean well, and it's nice that they want me to do well, but I need to get my crap together and that's just what it comes down to :-(****have you been on your meds for long? I was on Celexa for about 4 years. It was for anxiety, but my doctor said he felt the anxiety was from depression. He said the depression was probably from all the STRESSSSSSSS that I was going through due to my son's actions/inactions. So dysfunction could cause your brain chemicals to temporarily change, like mine did, I guess. I did NOT want to take meds. But I wanted to go to this particular doctor for therapy & he insisted on meds if he was going to have me as a patient, so I agreed. I've been off them for, hmmm, 2 years & a few months. Celexa messed up my memory BIGTIME***
> oh I don't know, I think I want them to be concerned, but I don't know how to tell them to fix it, I just wanted to feel alright for a while...sigh...yeah, I am kind of tired
so concern is nice, but I feel like a lost cause- that in no way however means that I want to give either of them up so there's not a hell of a lot of reason behind all the pot smoking beyond me just wanting to be as high as I can be******sounds like being high means being out of pain?****
> no, just the pot
> I know I will run out of it in a few days..and that will likely be it, but reality is not looking so hot
> thanks kath :-)***I'm really glad to hear you don't do other drugs as well. GAWD, I wish my son only did weed. Not to minimize the problems that I think weed can cause.
I'm so sorry you're in pain. I tend to always mention this link to people, as it's helped me cope with various types of anxiety & pain that I experience. You might want to look at it. It might be especially useful in dealing with coming off weed, if you don't buy any more.If you look at the link & decide to try it & don't know how to 'word' the statement, you can email 'Magnus' - the guy whose site it is. He's very nice. Here's the link:
www.tapping.com
It's sort 'way out there' but believe me, it has helped many people.****> I am so sorry for your son.
> zombification is more what I am living in******That was when he was REALLY sick & had been abusing his health/brain big-time with cocaine & crystal meth for a long time! He is da*ned lucky to still have a mind, as far as I'm concerned. I hope that soon you'll not be in so much pain. I hate pain of any kind. Mental & physical!!! Hate it!! Have you heard of 'mindfulness' at all? Right now I'm not as depressed as I have been, but there have been times when in the morning I'd wake up & actually feel almost physical pain from depression & lie curled up. I found that just being VERY aware of how I was feeling; what I was hearing helped me cope somewhat. If you're interested in using a mind-control type thing to help you cope, I suspect you'd get some support on either the Alternative Board, or maybe Social, or look in the Archives under Mindfulness maybe.***
> they just seem to imply that it's not healthy and will lead to problems....but I've got problems either way, the question is which set of problems do I want?*****yeah. Well, if it's true that it can lead to schizophrenia, THAT doesn't sound too appealing. In watching my son deal with it & being in the 'parent support group' & hearing how the other 'young people' are doing - believe me it's pretty awful. My son is probably one of the most fortunate ones. I'm not saying that would happen to you, but it you can manage to find ways to cope that don't include pot, it'd probably be a good thing.*****
> just daily
****** ~smile~ I note the "just"!! :-)
((((((you)))))))******> it's alright
> I put it out there
> I'm thinking about it, but I have a sneaking suspicion that I will keep myself out of serious danger. It would seem I am incurably responsible. My mother used to say "I knew I didn't have to worry about you....", and she was right*****well, I think your plan to not buy any more sounds good. Do you drink? If not, & if you're near a group & want some support from folks who have 'been there', there's always NA (Narcotics Anonymous) - I know that sounds extreme, but I don't think you need to be doing hard drugs to go. Just need to have the desire not to do drugs. I think most of the groups require abstinence from all drugs, including alcohol. 12-Step groups like NA work for some people & don't work for others.
Please know that I'm 'here for ya' as to support. you can always Babblemail me if you want to. I'm glad you have your medical support caring about you & there to help you, Obsidian.
hugs, Kath
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