Posted by obsidian on February 16, 2008, at 1:54:05
In reply to Re: daily marijuana use-questions please » obsidian, posted by Kath on February 15, 2008, at 17:41:06
> ******I suspect you will be able to find out if you're abusing by saying the following commitment-type statements & see how if 'feels' in your gut. How would you feel making each commitment:
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> "I commit to not smoking up for the rest of the day"
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> "I commit to not smoking up today & tomorrow"
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> "I commit to not smoking up the week"
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> "I commit to not smoking up for a month"
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> etc. - get the idea? To really get any accurate information from this, it'd be necessary to actually MEAN IT when you say it. To see how it would feel to actually KNOW that you're not going to do it.****none of the above statements feel very good, but alas, I will run out soon, and I am thus far not planning on purchasing anymore pot
after the first one I was like "what!? for the whole rest of the day!?"
> *******just read a report that for people who possess 2 types of genes, smoking weed can cause them to have schizophrenia. Pretty serious eh wot? My son (23) was diagnosed with sch. a year ago. He started doing weed at 13! Sad but
true***oh Kath, I am so sorry :-( I wish you and your son well.
yeah...my genes aren't squeaky clean as far as mental illness goes...it seems to be all over my damn gene pool, but less than well understood
> ********I guess if you have to be high to NOT feel anxious or depressed, there's something that needs helping. Smoking anything is harmful to your lungs. Not preaching here...just replying to your points.*****
> ********sounds like a dependency on smoking weed in order to cope with life. I bet a lot of people who are depressed smoke up to self-medicate. Are you on meds?****oh yeah I am, but I don't really think they are going to help much in my case...I think my issues are less biochemical and more a potpourri of dysfunction....so I take them because I think my T and pdoc mean well, and it's nice that they want me to do well, but I need to get my crap together and that's just what it comes down to :-(
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> ********what do you think would be a reason for concern? Maybe that'd be good for you to look at. Like, "I would be concerned about my weed use if:.....
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oh I don't know, I think I want them to be concerned, but I don't know how to tell them to fix it, I just wanted to feel alright for a while...sigh...yeah, I am kind of tired
so concern is nice, but I feel like a lost cause- that in no way however means that I want to give either of them up
so there's not a hell of a lot of reason behind aall the pot smoking beyond me just wanting to be as high as I can be
> *********do you have any inclination to change directions? do you do other drugs? YOU are the important one. People who care about you are obviously concerned about you. You are worth taking care of!*****no, just the pot
I know I will run out of it in a few days..and that will likely be it, but reality is not looking so hot
thanks kath :-)
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> *****if you do other drugs also, you could be heading for a mental crash, like my son. One guy in my son's mental health group has bipolar & it seems to have stemmed from smoking weed, although I suspect he might have done other drugs also. I think an important factor might be if you do other drugs.******no, no other drugs....so I suppose they expect I have my limits, and I guess I do, but I don't want any limits right now...I am on a mental vacation I think
>> > as if to say "well, it's your choice, but SOMETHING is going to happen"
> > but the truth is that NOTHING will likely happen, because I won't even be here(mentally) anymore
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> ******you'd have to be in a pretty bad state to 'not be here' mentally. Like, perhaps a zombie!!! When my son was REALLY psychotic, he was really screwed up bigtime, but believe me, he was THERE.....he was suffering a LOT********I am so sorry for your son.
zombification is more what I am living in
> *****what exactly are they saying? Maybe they're really scared for you***they just seem to imply that it's not healthy and will lead to problems....but I've got problems either way, the question is which set of problems do I want?
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> ***sounds like they're afraid that you might get into really serious problems as a result of smoking weed. Do you smoke often? Daily? Hourly?*****just daily
> ******Please don't take my post as being critical of you obsidian, because I'm not. It sounds like people who care about you are concerned & you feel there's no cause for concern. I guess a lot of factors would come into it. Are you on meds, do you do other drugs, how much, how often, how is it affecting your life, etc. I think the great thing is that you're looking at your life & evaluating things. It's good you care enough about yourself to be willing to look at the issue.it's alright
I put it out there
I'm thinking about it, but I have a sneaking suspicion that I will keep myself out of serious danger. It would seem I am incurably responsible. My mother used to say "I knew I didn't have to worry about you....", and she was right
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> I give you my warm support. Kaththank you, it is much appreciated :-)
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