Posted by Vwoolf on July 20, 2004, at 9:41:15
In reply to reality, posted by shortelise on July 19, 2004, at 18:57:06
Thanks Shortelise, for your kind message. I have been feeling better for the last few days, and have come to some kind of acceptance of the situation. As you say, one’s perceptions change, and what a few days ago seemed insurmountable now seems to have been a non-problem. Although I knew intellectually that my feelings for my psychiatrist were “just” projections, emotionally I felt them as if they were completely real. I had to allow myself to go through the full range of feelings of anger, betrayal, pain, fury, before I could start to let go. My therapist says I haven’t got to the end of it yet, and that these feelings will come back, but for the moment I am feeling as if I am in a more gentle and protected place.
I still feel that my psychiatrist is a very special person (if I am actually able to see anything in reality and this is not just another projection) and that I would love to go into analysis with him one day – he is a Jungian analyst and has an extraordinary sensitivity and humanity. However I have huge complexes deriving from my difficult childhood that I need to sort out first, and I think my therapist will probably be good enough for this. So I’m keeping my options open. Have you ever tried analysis?
Warm regards
VWoolf
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