Posted by Skittles on October 25, 2004, at 22:31:15
I'm wondering how all of your T's respond when you cry. And I don't mean just a couple of tears. What I'm interested in is that kind of bawling where you are sobbing and gasping for breath.
I ask because someone in the threads above mentioned that their T simply sat there watching! This is the very reason I censor my tears so much in therapy. I'm afraid of sitting there weeping with no physical contact. It makes the sobbing all the more sad, isolating and desperate - for me, at least. I'm not saying I want to be held. That would certainly make me uncomfortable. But a hand on the arm or shoulder would be nice. And I'm not sure that words alone would be enough for me.
Yes, I posted previously that my T is special. I still firmly believe she is. I just don't know how she would respond if I let this flood of emotion out. I'm afraid if I do, I'll only end up feeling worse. I know my other IRL people would let me down, so I've just been keeping it in. It's getting awfully big and painful. I *leak* a little now and then, but sooner or later the dam is going to break.
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