Posted by sunny10 on November 1, 2004, at 14:29:56
In reply to Re: Memories *could be a trigger, about dead people* » Larry Hoover, posted by gardenergirl on November 1, 2004, at 12:38:40
Gosh, it's so strange to hear you mention the stairway.
I have a cast from my right arm; broken when I was six months old. My mother (who was divorced from my sister's and brother's father and engaged to mine)got pregnant "out of wedlock". After my godmother forced her to leave the abortion clinic, she still hid her pregnancy from her parents and I didn't have the baby furniture from my siblings until I was six months old (they were stored in her mother's attic). I slept in a dresser drawer until then.
From "family lore" the "broken arm story" was that I had been so afraid of the new furniture that I smashed my arm down on the side of the crib repeatedly until I broke my own arm.
No one will ever know the whole, true story- I was six months old ! I would never be able to pull the memory of how that arm got broken! Even if hypnotherapy worked, I was incapable of coherent speech at the time, so an age regression therapy couldn't work, logically.
Well, gee, I always knew that I was emotionally neglected by my only parent until my mom re-married when I was 9. Then, when I got a new one-a stepfather who legally adopted my siblings and I, my father physically abused me. And when I grew up, I married an emotional abuser. And it appears I have a live-in SO who "dabbles in cocaine"-which frightens the h*ll out of me. Now I am learning that I was probably physically abused by my mother when I was only six months old???
Someone suggested that I read the book, Codependent No More, on the relationahip board. Does that mean I am dependent on abuse? G*d, how frightful is THAT thought?
Is there any escape from this through therapy?
Does anyone know anyone who has actually re-learned how NOT to wind up with these people??
Good grief, I thought I knew what was wrong with me before... more fodder to pay the T for, I guess....
(huge sigh)
-sunny10
poster:sunny10
thread:409684
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20041026/msgs/410144.html