Posted by Voce on December 8, 2005, at 16:44:11
In reply to Called my T, feel stupid now, posted by Voce on December 8, 2005, at 0:57:50
You are all so wonderful. I am truly humbled by how you have all rallied around me.
When she calls me back I am going to do my best to tell her how scared I am, and how I need some sort of definition to our quasi-relationship. Or if there won't be any definition, then I need to know that the rug won't get yanked out from under me.
But in the meantime, I reall appreciate how you've all validated me. I just really needed that encouragement. I need to be reminded that it's okay to have needs because I sometimes get this Stepford mentality that I can't feel anything, or need anything. I am only allowed to give.
And then there's the part of me that needs an "atta girl" once in awhile. Because I sure never got that when I was growing up, and I discovered that I would move heaven and earth for the man who would say that to me. T1 did all the time. And even though T2 is a woman, I think getting that validation through her is kind of like channeling T1.
Thank you for telling me that I'm brave. I needed that too.
poster:Voce
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